First of all, if you’re new here, WELCOME! I can’t see you through my screen, but I know you’re beautiful inside and out. 💜
Second of all, it’s now officially 356 days until Christmas. Just in case you were wondering. 😉🎅🏼
Third of all, let’s get to the point of this damn post.
So, you can probably already tell what this post is about because of the title. If you can’t then I really suggest you fix either your eyesight or your brain or both.
Let’s start with a bit of background first. Here’s how the storyline of my oh so exciting life has gone last year in the 🔥 most interesting year ever🔥:
Me circa Jan. 2016: “Last semester of senior year, F*CK YEAH! 🎉”
Me circa May 2016: “All that’s certain in my life is my love for 🥑🥑🥑. I have 0 ideas of what to do after grad.”
Me circa June 2016: “Wow I’m moving to Germany for an internship that I’m kind of excited for but also like eh 🤷♂️🤷♂️.”
Me circa August 2016: “Yeah! Living abroad! WOO! Love it!”
Me circa November 2016: “So. I kind of extreeeemmmeley dislike my job. And the world’s on fire so EVERYTHING’S FINE.”
And there we were at the end of the 2016 and start of 2017 like:
I know you feel me on that one. And here we are, four days into 2017, the year that everyone is hoping the best for because it can only go up from here. Seriously though, let’s never talk about 2016 again 😅.
With a new year comes a new me & big changes are in store. And that’s exactly why I’ve decided to:
Quit my first internship out of college.
Now, let me start off by saying that this was one of the hardest decisions I’ve had to make in a long time. It took me around a month to make the final decision to quit my first internship out of college. Then it took me around a month to convince my parents that this was the right decision for me.
There comes a time in your life (I already hate myself for using that phrase 😑) when you think you know what you want out of life. Then there comes a time in your life (still hating myself) when you realize you want something completely different than you ever thought you would ever want in any potential future world. And I mean COMPLETELY.
When I came to Germany, I thought I wanted to work in a business, make my way up the ladder, and become a big corporate boss so I could then make some positive impacts on the world. That’s why I took this internship opportunity in the first place. I thought that if I started at the bottom with this internship, I could eventually work my way up to a fancy, senior level position and change the world ✊🏼 (cue theme music).
That GIF is exactly how I felt a couple of months into my internship. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t exactly hate the internship in and of itself. I learned that I really didn’t like the fact that I had to sit behind a desk all day, spend my time staring at a (WINDOWS! 😪) computer screen doing work I didn’t care about, go to the gym after work, and never have time to actually live my life. But the most important thing was…
I learned that I don’t like being comfortable.
If my internship taught me one thing is that it’s so easy to fall into the comfortable 9-5 rhythm. You get out of bed, take the train to work, work from 9-5 with an awkward lunch break and small talk in between, go to the gym, eat a fast dinner, and fall asleep to Netflix. Seriously, that comfortability can suck you in faster than you realize and next thing you know – you’re wondering what the hell you’re doing.
I had a feeling inside when I started my internship that I wouldn’t be happy there for long. And that feeling really culminated itself when I started to work more on my Instagram and building up my personal brand. I figured out that what I was doing for 8 hours out of every weekday wasn’t even close to what I really wanted to be doing.
So, on December 31st, I walked away from my first internship.
And now it’s 2017 (🍾🎉) and I’ve decided to move away from the 9-5 corporate world for the time being. I’m going to be completely dedicating myself as a freelance writer, blogger, and digital influencer in the amazing, wonderful, exciting city of…
I’ll be officially moving to Berlin, a city of my DREAMS, on January 10th. I’m SO excited about this next step in my life, but also ya know, the butterflies in my stomach are oh so real. Whatever happens, I know, it’ll be incredible af.
The lesson I take from all of this -ish?
You’ve got to listen to your gut. Don’t stay in one place because that’s what the world is telling you to do after college. Don’t go for that job because it’s the most stable and you’ll be able to live the life your parents want for you. Don’t forget about your life path by straying on the course of making a stable salary.
If you have the opportunity and the privilege to do what you really want to in life, don’t let anything stop you. We’re only here for a short spell (unless science cures aging *cue X-files music*) and the only person who’s going to make sh*t happen for you…is you.
I love all of you darlings and I hope you’ve enjoyed this little life update/inspirational wisdom message from me. Don’t forget to subscribe because I promise I’ll start sending out emails in the very very near future. 🙏🏼